I actually created this blog a long time ago and forgot about it so I never wound up writing anything, until today. I think that’s a common theme in my life…starting things, but never actually pursuing them. It’s a character flaw of mine that I’ve always hoped to grow out of. Not only does this flaw pertain to blog posts or homework assignments; it also applies to my pursuit of knowing God better. There are certain books of the Bible that I want to dig into and study, or certain character traits of God that I want to process through and learn more about. There are people that I want to start being more intentional with and have spiritual conversations with, and there are ways of serving the Lord that I begin to feel passionate about and want to pursue. There are even things that I want to surrender to Jesus and begin to actually let Him take over, but I somehow get distracted and put pauses on pursuit of these things. The older I get, the more I realize that this flaw of mine is something that I am going to have to work at and I know that the “growing out of it” will only come from relentlessly pursuing the Lord (kind of ironic that months ago I titled this blog “her relentless pursuit”) and persistently striving for growth in this area.
I am a huge nerd when it comes to seeking the meaning of words. When I read books, receive text messages, or come across things that have a word in it that intrigues me even if I already know what it means I will look up its definition in the dictionary. Try it! Sometimes my mind is blown by what I thought a word means and what it is actually defined as. Trust me–words are a whole lot cooler than what we think! Just as it is important to know the definition of words when studying scripture, I see it to be important throughout daily life too. Who knows, maybe thats just me, but I promise it makes for interesting realizations.
So, to pursue my interest in defining words, I looked up the definitions for the words that title my blog… relentless and pursuit. Relentless is defined as, “oppressively constant; incessant”..Okay
STOP right there. My mind automatically thinks, “oppressed..I know what that means but what does the dictionary say it means.” So, oppressively=”weighing heavily on the mind or spirits.” Not only does my mind think that when I saw that word but it also is intrigued by the word “incessant” and wants to know what dictionary.com has to say about that one. Incessant=”continuing without pause or interruption”. Okay moving on– Pursuit.. Now this one is a bit more simple..”the action of following or pursuing something or someone.” Reading these definitions is like circling or underlining the final answer to a calculus problem. Almost like an “ah-hah!” moment. Friends, not only does the Lord show up through scripture, but He shows up all around us. I’ve been reading a book called Astonished by Mike Erre (seriously consider checking it out if you’ve never read it) and one of the things that I love/feel really convicted about what I’ve been reading is that we tend to look for God in all of the spectacular things and sometimes we forget to look around and find Him in the simple things. Looking up definitions to words of a title of a blog I created months ago is one of those little things for me.
This post is not at all saying that I have not been pursuing the Lord lately. God has been teaching me so much and this summer I am finding myself to grow more in love with Him every single day. However, I am saying that I don’t want to fall into a road of stagnation and I’m going to continue walking with the Lord the best way I know how, but starting now, I am going to try even harder to relentlessly pursue my Lord and Savior. I am going to deeply continue to pursue and follow Jesus without pauses or interruptions. When something weights heavy on my heart, when there is a character trait about God that I want to know more about, when there is someone who I randomly get the urge to contact, when I realize there is a book of the Bible I want to study, when there are certain scriptures I want to dig into, when there is a way of serving the Lord that is placed on my mind, and when there are things I feel I need to surrender to Jesus…I am going to pursue them more than I ever have before. And I am going to start by remembering that “Jesus is before all things, and in Him all things hold together”-Colossians 1:17. A relentless pursuit of Jesus will only bring about a more pure pursuit of these things…and so…. here’s to my relentless pursuit.